Remember to remember. Forget to forget.

Prayer

devilprincexx — Thu, 01 Mar 2012 03:16:45 +0000

Dear God,

I prayed. Hard enough. Every day.
You answered in your own ways.
One day out of the couple hundreds I prayed.
And gave me what I needed the most.
Thank you dear Lord.
You have been kind.
And if it is not too much of a burden.
(And/or I might just be greedy)
Just let me keep praying
for the same thing.
In my own way.

Amen.

Songbird

devilprincexx — Fri, 17 Feb 2012 20:04:40 +0000

a silent songbird
inside a cage
it no longer sings
open the cage, it says
the owner hesitates
to go back to the old ways.

Hey Cutie

devilprincexx — Fri, 17 Feb 2012 08:45:31 +0000

Hey cutie,
wear your skin tight tank
your lusty febreeze seduces the air
your face mask of colorful powders
scares a circus performer

Hey cutie,
there’s a line between
stupid and naive

Hey cutie,
Don’t worry.
there will be someone better
not richer, or smarter
no doctor or engineer
but definitely suitable for you.

Hey cutie,
You can flirt and show off
You can wink and flip your hair
For one’s money, for fame,
for someone’s future “potential”.

Hey cutie,
If you want money
you gotta study
not in the field of cosmetology
maybe try cosmology.

Hey cutie,
if you are attracted to someone’s “future potential”
let them be attracted to yours first.
Then one day, you wouldn’t have to chase.
You can flirt and say in the most geeky way
I know C and I know ARM, I know PSpice.
Not just any kinda spice, but sugar and spice.

Hey cutie,
Here is a secret
I thought Matlab stood for Mathlab
I am a girl.
I have no desire to cut those wires.
or consume stuffy computer lab air as dinner
I wish the breadboard is real bread
so I can eat something else instead.
I am not smart and I know.
I sleep less, and stay up for longer
Study more, play less than others
just so one day, I can be a step closer.

Open

devilprincexx — Tue, 08 Nov 2011 17:39:01 +0000

At the church group yesterday,
they ripped their hearts out
let others examine it.
using SAT words,
but that’s old fashion
our weaknesses poured out
Lack of self-confidence
My mouth was glued by spit
But it was my turn to speak
Time for my performance
I sliced it into pieces,
and gave it to others.
My lack of trust in others
And the belief that everyone lies
melted just a bit
because being so closed up bores everyone in my life,
including me.

Sleep

devilprincexx — Mon, 08 Aug 2011 13:09:56 +0000

Sleep
like infinite scenes repeating
turning on the curve at the end of the mind
sketching unrealistic images
persuading me to do unrealistic things
Leaning besides the edge of dreaming
but not actually sleeping
Confusion strikes me like lightening
I am awake but my mind dreams
but I cannot look deep within
So I sit here
sleep deprived and confused
at the dawn pushing toward a new day
at the night that pulls me back
Night wraps around me
dark traps me in
a jail for thoughts
a bucket of scenes
all too real but too old
So now I just pray
for sleep to take me in
this new early morning
of the same thing repeating.